Explore 2019: Accepting the Ebb and Flow in Relationships

Yesterday I shared about the power of prioritizing friendship. Today offered another touchpoint for exploration of friendships.

When I was a kid, I wanted so badly to be accepted. I was insecure about relationships but tried to be a good friend.

Over the years I have had several friendships in which women told me I was not a good enough friend and cut ties. Or in one case, I was given no explanation...just was totally ghosted...and this was one of my oldest friends. It totally tweaked my old friendship baggage and hurt like hell.

In the past couple of years I have worked on both owning up internally to my role in these relationships and also just to LET GO...realizing that people will always have their shit and sometimes even though something is coming out at me, it actually has very little to do with me. It's been extremely healing.

And then a few weeks ago, out of the blue, I received a letter from the old friend who ghosted me without explanation. I agreed to meet up for lunch with zero expectations.

I just returned from lunch and my heart feels so content. A couple of times I was tempted to ask if I had done something wrong. Instead, I stayed in the moment. I accepted the ebb and flow and felt grateful for the laughter.